This week has been rough. As per usual, my health is flaring with increased pain, which tends to increase my bipolar depression. With my bipolar, when I’m in “low mode” (aka: depressed state), I get negative thoughts that tell me I’m worthless. My life is worthless and I’m not making a difference in this world.
I know that’s a lie. While my life may not be what I would have hoped, I now recognize those thoughts are not true. I remind myself that this is just a bad day, not a bad life.
Then I jump into high gear self care mode to get a handle on those feelings.
This time, I did something new: I reached out to trusted friends to share my struggle.
I reached out to my business accountability group.
This group is with two other women; one I’ve known for a very long time and is a trusted friend, and the other is a new friend – also whom I trust.
They have other things in common with me, including health issues. So I can share personal things, not just business. When I shared what was going on with me physically and mentally, they encouraged and supported me.
I also reached out to my best friend, who instantly began to pray for me.
Having the support of these ladies really helped keep me from spiraling down even further. (Of course my husband and family are also supportive)
The result was I rebounded faster than I otherwise would have, because I reached out for support, instead of isolating. It made a huge difference!
Because of my mental illness (and that I’m an introvert), I tend to withdraw away from people. So me reaching out is actually a new thing, and it really made a difference!
I had an epiphany moment when I realized that I need support and encouragement.
I’m the one usually offering support and encouragement to others, but seldom ask for it myself.
Support and encouragement is the whole purpose of this site.
I want to offer encouragement and understanding to others. Not everyone has the support that I do. But if I can be really honest, it would help me too, and give me a place to ask for encouragement and support, while also helping others. A win-win for everyone. 🙂
Sharing my epiphany is me being honest that I’m still trying to find the best tools and methods that will help me.
I’m not going to sugar coat my life, as I share it with you. I don’t want to bum anyone out, nor am I attention seeking; but for me to give you “social media edited highlight reels” doesn’t help you.
Chronic illness isn’t glamorous. I share my real life struggles – and victories – to let someone else know they aren’t alone.
Speaking of support… did you know that I have a PRIVATE Facebook chronic illness support group?
Click here to join the group, so we can encourage and support each other.